journal entry---very piss

you are so fucking wrapped up in your fucking life, that you don;t fucking see it........... you narcastic pompus arrorgant bastard

u swore you could do this, but you failed, and i have to laugh because it's amusing my silly lullaby, you thought you could tame and release but you failed in your attempted,u took apart the insides, you were insidious and self reliant and you spoke rarely of this demise, but it;s come and i'm sorry you've forgotten and i'm sorry, you aren;t listening, i'm leaving, with the rest of your wishful thoughts............. coming apart wasn't the plan, it was just to leave, just to play the same game as you are playing, but surprising i've stopped playing and became the pawn to get back at the one person, you love entirly because she fucking hurt you and you are so fucking bitter about it, you would rather be in a relationship that's constantly pulling you to your witsend and making you want to disappear, but i can;t ket you do that, i can't let you leave now, in too deep