4 Months

I new my mom was upset
when dad slammed on the breaks
so i layed right where i was
all curled up, and closed my eyes

I hadn't seen what happened
only dad's voice,
muffled like always
yelling at mom

i felt like it was my fault
but sometimes dad hugged me anyhow
it wasn't always bad
we all loved each other

but everyone always wanted to cry with me
so i cried,
unable to reach out
unable to make them proud of me

Once mom cried and said goodbye
And told me dad didn't want me
but i knew he did
he was always so scared

my world was always dark
but warm
wet
my mother was my world
...but then she said goodbye
...and said dad didn't want me
...and once i saw the hose
...and once i could feel it pulling me in

...i said goodbye