Murder in the dark (save me from myself)

Lost
Drowning in a pool of nightmarish desire
Yearning for loves sweet touch and caress
But dark waters don’t caress
They choke the willing victim
Suffocate the traitor
Who threw herself at their mercy
Seeing death as the release

Confusion
Sitting on the edge of a black hole
Being dragged in, Crushed to an oblivion
Have I lost myself? Can I be saved?
Do I want to be?
I’m slowly disappearing
Molecule by molecule into a dark place I can’t escape
Á place of destruction

Uncertainty
Feelings unread, clouded by my self loathing
Murky and undefined
Do I love you, or are you just an ideal?
The thing I thought I wanted.
Confused by my desires for another
Who I can never love?

Deceit
The other I can’t let go of, I lead on
I want to leave but I keep crawling back to.
He follows me without question down a dark path
Into the black water to smother us both
I am responsible for pain in so many
And I let the water kill

Death
I am the bringer of night. I am the being the dark things fear.
I see happiness and I destroy, maim until lives are ruined
I don’t want to be evil, but evil I am
Born from the fires of hell, or somewhere worse
A dark place where light dare not venture
And dark things like me dance our deathly numbers
And live only to destroy.