Trapped in Depression

Series of two poems:

*------*

There's a whole new darkness
waitin' inside me
Like there's something
hiding, keeping me numb.

There's this whole new feeling
keeping me under.
Like there's something
mysterious, keeping me scared.

I'm not sure what it is
that you have done
but I can no longer sleep.

I feel as if I'm falling
further and further
into this long hole of despair.

I can no longer contiue fighting
I feel as if there's no where to go.
But I need to get up and move on.

I need to get out of this hole
instead of dwelling further.
I need to find the light inside
to save me from myself.

And finally be Free

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My heart is heavy
and my head feels cold.
My faith in the world is slowly leaving
causing me to fall.
My dreams are haunting me
leaving me bedridden.
What can I do about this feeling?
I am no longer happy, I feel as if I'm drained.
The sun seems to no longer shine (even though I'm staring it in the face)
and all I feel is cold and darkness.
The light pierces my left eye...
I can no longer see it.
There's a fire that burns inside
that I can no longer feel it.
What does it matter?
I feel like a friggin corpse.
I'm useless and ungrateful.
There's nothing left
Except to move on.


[Partially for the events of an unforgivable night.]