the knowlage only pain and time may bring

Of all the things i've done in my short and wasted life.
There are many things i regret and wish i could redo.
Especialy the way i treated you

You were always there to hold me....

to love me.

to listn for me.

and to help heal me.

But i foolishly refused to ever be held.
Nor did i long to talk or to listn.
And your love i took for granted and never really opendmy eyes to.
Neither did i wish to heal for pain was my love.
Atleast untell you left...

then the pain did domenate and turn me blind to the love you still had for me.
Then i foolishly turned u away when you came back.
Because i was afraid of the pain i had would go and come again.

And now over the years the pain has stayd and forced maturity and wisdome time brings.

And i now long to hold and be held.
To listen and talk for hours on end.
Finaly i wish to heal and be heald.
Most of all to love you like you so deserve to be loved.

Even if the love for me you once had has now become the ghost of memorys lost.