she was with him last night
I don't know that for certain, though where else can she be?
She had to drive her brother to work.
She didn't come home afterward.
Those of you who've read my work here know
Perhaps only a little, true, but I am a soul in torment.
She said she needs time
time to clear the cobwebs from her mind
to find if I'm the man I was
the man she wanted, wants, or needs.
She is moving to another house.
My daughter, son, and her.
There would be room for me, should she want to let me in.
Our present home is just a rental
and now is filled with darksome ghosts.
I hate this house.
This is where she said "I'm unfulfilled."
I try to carry on, each day.
It's hard.
All unbidden, my tears begin
At random times, and as though they'll be neverending.
I have written the surface of my heart in these electronic pages,
But the confusion, grief, and chaos run so much deeper than i can express.
My hope is not dead. Hope is all I have left.
Hope, and all of you.
You who listen.
You who feel.
You who comfort me with gentle words, and silence.
Thank all of you.

Michael

Her birthday is next Tuesday, 2/14.
How does a man say what she means? Without driving her away?