addicted

the cuts on my arms and legs became more and more
but still the pain was not enogh to take me from reality
the more that I atempted suicide the more I relized its not my time to
die
several attemps and im still alive
i've become adiccted to trying to die
smoke all day drink and fuck all night
this is my new addiction
my way to escape and my new way of life
and though some do not agree
i've built myself a safety net
and dont think I'll ever get off
no man can brake my heart
if all I do is fuck
and if I smoke and drink myself stupid
I forget my familys gone and im all alone
therefore the pain is gone.