I've grown weary of this
I'm tired of it
Stripped of all my patience

Everytime I see you
I feel myself falling
...followed by staring
...followed by puking

I watch and it's sickening
It's your world that poisens me
You've got me all sickly
You've fuckin diseased me

In my veins and I'm shaking
Under my skin and I'm aching
My eyes hurt
yet I can't help but look
out of curiosity
It is my jealousy and your poison
that rots me

It's all I want to be
Don't tell me it'll get better in time
for me
I couldn't care less, I want
What I want for myself!!!

Living my sick reality