Life,
Many of wonders,
How does it last?

Through relationships?
Or mabey marriges.
But is it worth it?

I don’t know,
I ask this every day and night,
Yet I still wonder,
Is it worth it?

Fifteen long years
I’ve held on.
Is it too long,
Not long enough?

I don’t know
Mabey,
Mabey not.

Should I keep holdong on?
It makes me wonder.

If so,
What for?
It only causes pain,
Very little achievements.

If not,
Why?
What will I lose,
What will I miss?

All these questions,
So confusing,
for the normal mind only,
Not for mine.

It makes me sad,
Trying to wonder,
When the only thing I achieve,
Is another plunder.


I like the negative view,
But what if I miss something?
Then it is a waste,
But what is life?

What if I don’t miss anything,
Then it would be too late,
I wouldn’t be able to have the chance,
That decides my fate.



Why do I torture myself,
Put through so much,
Too much pain,
Not enough gain.