Down

Since he left,
I slowly die inside.
While I die each day,
He seems to drift away.
I try to reach out to him,
But obviously he doesn't care.
I try to speak to him,
But he just turns away.
It's even worse when I go to school,
People there spread rumors about me.
I don't care about them anymore,
I almost killed myself because of them before.
But I don't tell them that,
I don't want them to know my weakness.
So I push everyone away,
No one can hear my lonliness.
No one knows me,
And no one will.
I shut them all out,
I don't mind if they kill me.
Just aslong as they don't take my soul,
Because without my soul I am no longer whole.
Is this not what I am supposed to do?
What would his 'perfect' girlfriend do?
If not that then what?
I just try to be perfect for him.
What else can I do?
He doesn't want me anymore.
And so I go away,
No longer here will I stay.