the day bleeds sunlight (/headlights?) and an aching stirs inside of me
(familiar?)
I feel like I’m being stabbed in the back (she says/ spells betrayal) as I drop to my knees
(.familiar?)
But I love you (strikeout) and I’m tired of begging,
“could you wake up please? Do you see what’s in front of you?
some cares someone (I feel) someone
(..familiar?)
but I’m quitting now entirely, (this is me folding) I’m breaking myself, just let it cease.
Next time instead of huffing, inhale deep.
(make me more than an adjustment disorder.)
(…familiar?)
the scent of your hair (inhale deep) and the way you breathed those words. (breaking I) taste it (go on). (strikeout)
“I was angry. You really do mean a lot more to me.”
(a lot… a better ending of/for mania, love) there’s nothing between us but space, opportunity and (silent… desolate… dizzy?) silence.
(infinite has potential)
(….familiar?)
well, experience only allows (room to grow apart) what I will learn and since I’m optimistic I wont be pissed my entire existence.
(ya know…. that rhymes with false pretenses)
(…..familiar?)
but id be persistent (/ but optimistic begins with “s” and ends with “ucker”) while your (/heart was ever so set on) resistan(nce/ant)
its awkward, the way you “recoil” (experience per say) like a Magnum back firing (empty/heavy hearts and empty bullet cases)
(admit it) just another failure (add that omit this)
(……familiar?)
can you hold my hand?
I can (/cant) fell the morphine taking over (/taking back?) again. I just hope that you’re here (there, somewhere) when I wake up.
(…) i'll be fine if we can kiss & make-up (/mak(/d)e out(up?))
(like Always and Forever… this makes me sick)
(…….familiar?)
Can you hold a grudge? (cant you?)
Cant you keep the thought in mind of last week (kiss & make-up… oh pricesse)
What we left behind? (just ignore me/it/this/us?)
I’m sorry you don’t have the time for this.
(always?)
the time for me(/us?)
but everyone (and yes I do mean everyone) else is always (always always?) another (shattered right? Broken? (record?)) story
forgive me for being as bold to, but its not another story to go untold..
(make me more)
..not another (/moment without…) time to hold my tongue
(then stop bitching and cut it out/off?)
(……..familiar?)
but the best (/worst) of me (, its yours) is on the line, but then again I, I am a train wreck.
(you speak for all of us. Wait back it up now here… morphine? No underlying meaning her/there/.There.)
so I’m not “straight” or “okay” or as you might sigh (/say/scream) “fine”
(………familiar?)
(like /love/loathe repeat…forget it.)
forget it’s forgotten and remind me (remember me?) to forget to remember (/ care)
to find something else in a (soft, sunken, sulking, sensual… stop it) ebony sea (/sea?) that’s lost and dark (/I’m afraid) and drowned in sympathy.
(it’s all that’s left of me)
(……….familiar?)
but don’t forget (its forgotten) to breathe…
but on the way down let your lungs be filled (remembered) with salt water and (just let it) burn your esophagus
(love, loathe, live, lie, linger, lie repeat.) stop it.
(………..familiar?)
I’m off
(and over this)
(I’m such a liar)
and a bad one at that
It weighs heavy to sink me.
Me becoming (be becoming) who (/what?) I don’t want to be
Ill take it
(and take and take and take)
and overuse it to steadily (/readily) kill the day
(and take and take and take)
fade (away?) to a waxing moon and a (lonely?) night of (/to allude to) illusion (and a mild hallucination of sorts)
stay away from me
(ill lie you down on a bed of red and white rose petals…)
you must be lonely (are you lonely?)
(you (re) may (be) be lovely (more or less))
pull back, I’m not coming back (/down)
(or just.. I’m leaving)
(you’ve) blee (/a) d me dry, love
(what makes your problems no more than page breaks?)
(..yeah) I’m the answer.
(capture/ keep/ give it (up? (in mind?))
it all makes no sense
(so you get well soon)
im sorry im (/loving you is) a inconvience
(strike out)
"i am sorry this is so messy."
(and she signed it with a lowercase 'j')
which hung me (up?) under a wide ruled blue line
(…………familiar?)