suicides notes & straightened coathangers

(or the secrets we keep)

i know
you know
we both know all the dirt
the terrible things
we’ve messed up so much
the drunken drives
and statutory fucks
the cheating
and the drugs
you know where i’ve fallen
and you’ve been there too
i don’t know what to think about anything
not anymore
we are not kids
we ventured all through this town
looking for excitement
looking for greatness
looking for something incredible
and along that trail
we found all of that
but eventually we found
where the sidewalk ends
and we stepped out of our shorts
and school pride t’s
into loafers
into suits
finances & responsibility
we know about the teenage paryting
and the shoplifting
the mindless vandalism
we know all of the lies
and the cover-ups
if we turn on each other
with this knowedge we’ve attained
we will be the finest of enemies
but we don’t
we just push on
and step into the future
trying to achieve something amazing
while looking at each other
and smiling
seeing the understanding
behind these tired eyes
knowing what we know
knowing what we know
we will have large families
nice house
great lives
inside we’ll know where we’ve been
we’ll always know these things
and never speak of them

you know all of the shit i’ve done
because i’ve told you
and you’ve heard it from others too
and just so you know
i’m aware
of the one thing
you’ve kept from me