Help me

This hurt goes so deep.
Everyday I wage a war into the void.
Burning and screaming into the abyss.
Why won't these jackals leave me be?
How do I begin to heal when I pick the wounds incessantly?
How do I get off my bloodied knees and stand?
How do I trust when I don't understand the meaning of it?
How do I love when all I see is hatred?
How do I feel when my cracking moulded wall just won't come down?
God please show me the way.
Show me the light for I am blind.
Call out to me for I am deaf.
Take my hand for I am lost.