You've hurt me so bad. You cheat on me repeatly, and tell me you love me. You said that you would stop talking to, and seeing her. But still you do! How can you love me? How can you do this to me? Four years wasted.. I thought what we had was real, but I guess I was the only one who thought that. I know you still talk to her. You call her more than you ever call me. It's hard to even get you to call, and when you do- to keep you on the phone for more than three minutes. You say I don't deserve you? That's right I don't! I am so fuckin' good to you. I support you, give you what you need, I am always here for you. But will you be there for me? No! How come you were there for her when her grandmother was dying and died, but you aren't here for me when my sister is dying?!

I am so hurt by you right now. My heart is crying out.. and I just want to stab the shit out of it, because it's not like I'd feel it, you stab it EVERYDAY! Why am I with you? You cheat on me all the time, but this was the worst! Why? Because when you would fuck all those girls, you wouldn't talk to them again because you just wanted sex. This time.. this time you wanted more another fuckin' girl, like I am not enough.. I give you what you want when you want it so what the fuck? My heart is hurting like you even care.. You make me feel like if I left you I'd never find someone better than you.. maybe that is true so all I can do is sit here and take everything you throw at me.. until I am numb.

I wish so bad I did care anymore, I wish I didn't love you the way I do. Did you know that the only time I was really happy with you was at night? That's because it's when you came home, and you slept with me in bed and held me tight.. That was the only time, and I wish that it could have lasted for ever. This situation make me LITERALLY sick. I feel sick when I know you are talking to her, I feel sick because you are probably thinking of her. I feel sick because you hurt me and just don't care. I feel sick because you refuse to talk to me. I feel sick because you won't BE there for me, I mean for God's sake my sister is dying BE THERE for ME! You make me feel sick. You make me feel sick because I love you.

Sin-cerely,
Liana Marie Collado