Fragments of the Shattered Mirror

It turned my eyes away,
the way it always has.
But this time,
it turned me away from a friend.

Someone I love.
There is no forgivness for this sin,
I have betrayed my friend and gone against what I believe in.

I lost my compassion  for a moment,
and when my breath returns,
damage has already been done.

Now I'm stuck,
between what to do,
or how to say the right words.

I repeated what had been done to me,
and it is something I doubt I will ever forgive myself for.

How can I easily let this sunshine die?
How could I let darkness seep over a bright flourishing rose?
The anger is building,
the mesirable feeling is overcoming

The dark thoughts are beginning to enter my mind,
and the guilt is pushing tears out of my eyes.
Hate is churning in my heart.

Hate towards myself.
And just like that,
I'm a fragile mirror that has just shattered

A million pieces flying through the air,
hitting the ground with gravity's pull.
The loud crashing sound rings through the air
and it feels like it will never end.

I knew in my mind the sound would never leave me.
It was the sound of a harsh realization,
it is the sound of my love that I held for me,
flying into where it will never be found.

The only way now,
to piece back the broken me,
is to find new fragments to call pieces of my heart.