Is this what it's really like
What it's like to be human after all
To be be able to bend and break
To be kicked down to the floor
 
Is this what it's like
To have flesh and a pack of bones
To hurt, to bruise, to bleed
To be surrounded by hearts of stones
 
I gave my grace up for humanity's sake
And the same wishes my life to take
 
Pain, I heard of but understood not
To me it was only a place of silence
Now i realise it far much more than that
It's where you lose all even inocence.
 
Fears I thought I knew of
But never imagined it this way
Where I find myself at war within
That I beg I do not see another day
 
The things no one told me
The things I never thought I would see
 
What we called temptation
Is nothing compared to this I must fight
We played our games of 'Dare and Dare'
But we never lost the light
 
What we called hunger then
Is pure and actual bliss
In it we craved what we already had
But never lacked a thing, not a thing to miss
 
The sufferings of walking this earth
The tortures of knowing of death
 
We knew of Satan as a fallen friend
Lost in his own experiments
Experiments he proceded with to the earth
That we thought would be a great experince
 
I had no idea that with this meat-suit on
Those experiences are capable of redefining me
Changing everything I ever believed in
My strength, faith, all gone
 
What is this place
Can there be another even worse
 
Oh Father! I hate what I am now
I do not know what I have done
I have no idea who I am
Please take me back for I know not what I have become
 
I want to be an angel again
I did not have to worry about the afterlife
never should have come here at all
That was all of it... the 'this and later' life
 
My heart aches
My body breaks 
 
And after walking amongst the humans
I have come to this conclusion
That pain is by far the only real and original feeling
Happiness is an assumption and love an illusion