optimistic nothings

i always knew id be alright
i always knew id turn out fine
i always thought my Christmas tree,
was always so divine

i never thought id be depressed
i never knew how much i could cry
i never knew my Christmas tree
would wither up and die

i always was happy
i always loved to smile
i always said "i love you"
but i havent in a while

i never knew it hurt
i never thought i cared
i never thought id sit and think
i never got prepared

i dont think you know
how hard it is for me
how hard its always been or
how hard it will always be

No regrets
thats what i have to say
i know i gotta move on
or ill never be ok

im gonna make it work
im gonna make it through
im gonna end up happy
and ill never be like you