My Secret ... My addiction

By archangelmichael

Cold steel, a crisp edge
Yielding flesh and tattered dreams
Feeling again and finding my friend
Pain is my friend, Pain is my life
This is how I continue, this is how I survive
I dare not share this, my deep little secret
For fear that they may take away my friend
For fear that they remove my life's only pleasure
This pleasure is taboo, This pleasure is exquisite 
The crisp edge, my yeilding flesh
This is how i cope, this is how i deal
This is my only way to truly feel

Love is a phantom, hate is a lie
why i ask can i not simply die
The reason is simple, to those who understand
Pain is my life, and Pain tells no lie

I have felt love, only a new form of pain
I have felt joy, but dissapears
I have felt all things, the only truth is pain
My dreams have all crumbled 
My faith is gone
so how do I continue until the next dawn?

I take the steel, that wonderfully crisp edge
I accept this pain, I accept this edge
I know that this is real, I know I am alive
I know this is true feeling, As i wish that i would die

Joy does not exist
Love will simply crumble
So as ,through life, I stumble
I make my own joy
I make my own dark love
to the cold steel, with that wonderfully crisp edge



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Copyright 2012 archangelmichael
Published on Wednesday, August 22, 2012.     Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"
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  • A former member wrote: You have reduced me to tears. This poem feels like it was written from the side of my soul most don't see. How Beautiful

  • A former member wrote: " I have felt all things, the only truth is pain".. i felt that line.. the entire poem is a feeling i know all to well..however i have to disagree with somethings.. joy does exist and you will find it someday.. love does not simply crumble although I haven't found a love that hasn't crumbled i refuse to believe tru love doesn't exist! Lovely write, i like your works!

  • A former member wrote: I know exactly how you feel, I've been there, not too long ago. A delightful write, I can feel the pain as if it's my own. Welcome to DP, you ever need a friend, or somebody to just listen I'm only a message away.

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