Once I thought this world held excitement and adventure..
Once I believed in good in people, and in life..
Today if you ask me what I believe I shall refrain from answering
For lately it depends on the time of the day and what the deck has dealt
2012 held promise, and faith wavered a weak light feeble though it was
Yet here we are three weeks in, and that light is all but snuffed out
Most act as if they know who I am, yet only a rare few do,
Family, the cornerstone of my life, is slipping away,
How did I end up here, what crime did I commit to stand alone
At this time, in this place, here
Tears shed in darkness, Pain wretches from within
Though from the outside a smile is seen, a moment without care
Yet the darkness looms, just beyond the door,
A call is sent, not from one but from all
No food to feed them, they sit and wait, all the while snarling
then the canvas burns, the holes broaden, the shield from the storm is gone
No sanctuary from the rain, No stand against the wind
Then the sickness slips inside, to weaken the resolve from within
The doctor wont see without a note, the medicine is for the richer folk
So I stand here and wither within the storm, Callous and cold, forlorn
Trying to save the tender bud that struggles to bloom within
yet the gales still come, the weakness threaten to succumb
Young ones hail they know the answer to all, yet they have yet to clear their own path
Family burdened beyond belief have trust in you and turn away
Friends of the sunny days have left to find sweeter meadows in which to play
The few that are left stand and watch the fight, through a barrier which they cant cross
For I have been thrown, left here to without thought,
Not given a reason for this, only to be asked if I have learned the answer
Without being given the question...
I stand confused and alone.

ADR 1/2012