suicide and why
I thought of cutting my throat and bleeding myself dry.
how long would tears pour from my eyes before i'd finally die?
I thought of hanging from the telephone cord twisted around my neck.
how long would i sway back and forth before i ran out of breath?
I thought of shooting myself in the head for my father to come out and see.
how long should the bullet be and what angle would kill me instantly?
I thought once i was dying before and i prayed to a god i do not believe.
how long until this fog will clear and finally let me be free?
I thought of driving my car off a bridge in hoping i would explode.
how long would i be dead before someone pulled me off of the road?
I think of dying every day and the different ways i could.
I think of how it might effect the ones i love and if i really should.
I think of everyone else before myself but dying just sounds so good.
Every day i change my mind and im not really sure why.
Every day i think about death because i really want to die...