suicide and why

By WatchTheWorldCollapse

 I thought of cutting my throat and bleeding myself dry.
how long would tears pour from my eyes before i'd finally die?
I thought of hanging from the telephone cord twisted around my neck.
how long would i sway back and forth before i ran out of breath?
I thought of shooting myself in the head for my father to come out and see.
how long should the bullet be and what angle would kill me instantly?
I thought once i was dying before and i prayed to a god i do not believe.
how long until this fog will clear and finally let me be free?
I thought of driving my car off a bridge in hoping i would explode.
how long would i be dead before someone pulled me off of the road?
I think of dying every day and the different ways i could.
I think of how it might effect the ones i love and if i really should.
I think of everyone else before myself but dying just sounds so good.
Every day i change my mind and im not really sure why.
Every day i think about death because i really want to die...

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Copyright 2011 WatchTheWorldCollapse
Published on Friday, December 9, 2011.     Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

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  • A former member wrote: Wow... I have no words... this left me speechless... All I can say is that I feel the same way...

  • A former member wrote: First of all, the Flow & rhyming, is off the charts beautifully presented. And i agree completely... Have those same thoughts every day...

  • WatchTheWorldCollapse On Saturday, December 10, 2011, WatchTheWorldCollapse (15)By person wrote:

    thanx for all the support everyone. i'm fine though. just another bad day i guess

  • haunted On Friday, December 9, 2011, haunted (854)By person wrote:

    first i have to say that your ryhming is the shit! this poem flows incredibly well. very nice writing. and second, you really have pain about life. i know because ive been down that road many times and survived a couple of attempts. all i can say is it gets better, i promise! life just works itself out and its like riding a roller coaster with no brakes. when does it end. you just fucking hang on until it finally comes to a stop. i dont know your situation but for me i still live with feelings of deep emptieness and depression. you writing poems about how you feel is extremely theraputic. reach out to people, dont be alone to much if you can. if it gets to intense, call a crisis line. it can feel like nobody may love you at times. but think of those same people mourning your death. they would be a fucking mess, because they love you!

  • Devilish On Friday, December 9, 2011, Devilish (2667)By person wrote:

    I know exactly how this feels... My cousin commited suicide, it killed the family... Hang in there .. It will be ok sooner than later.. Keep writing you'll see how it releases the tention slowly but SURELY.. Before you know it you'll have passed those feelings on to a new high... Were here if you need us... Scholar

  • Quietus On Friday, December 9, 2011, Quietus (78)By person wrote:

    I hear you, but I have to say--even though I too think of suicide sometimes--that it's not the way out. Even if you think everyone hates your guts, I'm sure that there's at least one person who actually gives a fuck and will be completely devastated if you not only died, but killed yourself. They'd feel like they did shit for you and maybe you want them to feel the guilt, but it would haunt them forever. I don't know, maybe it's just me. I always try to just stay alive through the depression and the thoughts, but I know how hard it is and that's why I write poetry. Because it lets me get anger and depression out of my mind, and though you or I may seem futile, we can help people relate to our poetry and feel like they aren't alone in this big ass world. I really think you write good :) Thank you for sharing,.

  • A former member wrote: This causes arousal of some deep emotions I had at a point in my life. Very nice.

  • A former member wrote: Wow I feel u hang in there email me if u need anything keep writing

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