You taught me pain.

pain and

above all

what it is to be broken hearted,

what it was to be used.

You taught me

what it was to cry out loud,

to scream..

to let it go..

You taught me to let it be numb..

Laugh away the hurt...

To transform to better suit people...

You taught me

to show emotions,

Paint the world red and black,

Smearing my disgust over the walls,

To thrive on hallucinations,

To rub my eyes and see delusions,

and lastly ...

To feel deader than I've ever felt.