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By N3ll
Smoke cigarettes with the hope of dying young
Roll up little buds
with hope of numbing feelings
Inhale gasoline with the hope of stopping
my mind
Slice here and there with the hope of purification
Burn
the skin with hope of showing my insides
Fuck them with the hope
that they will not love me
Torture them with the hope that they will
see the darkness
Play mind games with the hope of strange amusement
Cry by myself with the hope that someone will hear
Give up
sleeping with the hope that the nightmares will die
Stop talking
with the hope that silence has more meaning
Sleep walk around with
the hope that someone will notice
Hold up the white flag with the
hope that everyone will stop
Shoot the flare gun with the hope that
someone will save me
In everything I do there is hope, in every action
I take there is hope
Drag you into my world let you use my soul with
the hope that you’ll understand.
Let my eyes burn you into the ground
for calling me hopeless.