Another horrible poem

Addiction’s getting stronger,

My mind proceeds to wander,

To a time when I was harder,

To a life when I was dumber.

Like a moth unto a flame,

Crystal calls my name,

To alleviate my pain,

To magnify my shame.

Will the symptoms ever,

Start to become better?

I took a vow of never,

Why can’t the ties I sever?

So here I am at home,

To face it on my own,

Feeling so alone,

My thoughts bleak in tone.

And so I pick up my pen,

Paper my outlet once again.

Reaching out for a friend,

Before I put it to an end.

This is how I deal.

My secrets I now reveal,

This is a wound that will not heal.

A gash that will not seal.

So come at last to me!

Put me out of this misery!

From the binds set me free!

Allow me my destiny!