KEPT

There is no life within these walls,

All you feel is the echo,

Of the life before the pass calling to the future,

Broken window pains seem to be open eyes watching the world

pass By

It is no longer a home

as if the self you where has been smothered

You are like this house still ringing and healing from the pass

ignored

By those who call themselves your friends

You become darker rotting from the inside out releasing

Only false smiles and fake laughs

But then comes along a simple glimmer a small show of hope

In the shape of a handsome man you become obsessed

breathing in his hateful glances

Devouring his bitter words you hate him and he hates you

But he does not know that his hate keeps you alive

And every angry touch excites you

He hates and you hate him

He is to you and your broken house

As the innocent creature who takes residents, a termite that
destroys the house from Within

And yet the house is satisfied to not be alone

In the end

You hunger for his hands to squeeze harder around your neck till

Your lifeless you spit angry words hoping he will do it

Do it, do it you chant over and over in your head until

Finally he to catches on to the look of total happiness and

acceptance at your own death

He backs away quickly the termite has caught on his eyes

Devouring your inside emotions

No , No, he can not know how much you hate him

Yes, you use those words yet if some one listens closely

every time they hear your mouth scream those words your

Eyes scream I love you

I love you so much

That I gladly accept your hate and anger and sadness

Let it all be directed at me and like the termite to the house

destroy me from within

And never find out how much I care.

He has found out he stares at you with shock

he is disgusted at himself for not seeing it before

For not seeing

You beg him for death

instead you now sit in a cell

A dark room far from life below

he says you are his secret

His favorite 'hate' you are his and never you own

The termite instead of destroying the house now owns it

You are his dark dirty broken secret.

Scarred only be him

Hated only by him

Kept only by him

And loved only by him