Mother

What do you want with me already?
You already take everything that was dear.....
As the resin flies from your fingertips,
Your bloodstained hands and cold eyes keep me in check.

It wasn't supposed to be this way, you know
But what else to expect from someone who is an addict?
As you took the most beloved jewel from my life,
You continue to search, and continue to conspire
You want the death of me, that I am sure beyond a doubt.

... I stay here as you bodyguard.
I stay here as your consort.
For the small price of the needle
I get the ever-growing loss of freedom.

You took the most valuable thing to me
You took away my mother,
The sweetest and kindest being in the world
By the time she knew what was happening
She was gone, a lost and gentle soul in the world.

Mother, she was as kind as a puppy
And as pure and as beautiful as a dove
Yet you took her away from me
And made my soul as black as the midnight sky.

You are the dealer.
I am the junkie.
But when it's all over,
I will have your head
Detached from your throat.

You think I am weak
You think that a junkie can't destroy his dealer.
That the junkie will take whatever price the dealer offers.
But you do not know.
That when you took from me my mother,
You in the flash of an instant have become my enemy.

For the price of fifty pounds of speed
You took what was the most dear to me'
When I couldn't pay your pricey wager
You took the most priceless thing in the world.

I will have revenge for your deed
When you least expect it,
When the moon is full,
And when the night is slow and calm
That is when I will strike
Dagger in my hand,
And wit on my side
And, yes, contrary to most of the people you have worked with
My wit is still intact.

I will get you
When you least expect it,
I will come in and devour you
For I am my mother's child,
And though I failed at protecting my mother's will to live,
I will succeed with my personal will to see you dead.