Spoiled Life

THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ME.
I WANTED TO BE PERFECT. EVERYONE DOES.
I DIDN'T SEE WHAT WAS IN FRONT OF ME. THEY DID.
I WANTED TO HAVE STORIES. MY FRIENDS DID.
I JUST WANTED TO BE DIFFERENT. BUT I ALREADY WAS.
I WANTED TO UNDERSTAND. THEN I DID.
I WANTED TO HEAR. SO I HEARD THE NAMES AND LIES.
I WANTED TO FEEL. BUT I FELT HIS HARD HAND ON MY CHEEK.
I WANTED TO SEE. I SAW THEIR DRUGS.
I WANTED TO BE SOMETHING BETTER. I WAS ME.
I WANTED TO FORGET MY STORY. I LISTENED TO THEIRS.
I WANTED HER TO LEAVE HIM. WE STAYED.
I WANTED HIM TO DIE. HE HAS CANCER.
I WANTED RUN AWAY. I'M A SOLDIER.
HE HAD THE SAME LIFE AS ME. HE WAS MY FRIEND.
I WANTED HIM TO RUN WITH ME. HE WAS A SOLDIER.
I WANTED TO START OVER. WE TRIED TO PLAY FAMILY.
I WANTED IT TO BE REAL. HE TOLD THEM I'D KILL THEM FOR HIM.
I WANTED HER TO LEAVE HIM. SHE'S DEAD NOW.
I WANTED IT TO BE HIM INSTEAD. HE KILLED HER.
I WANT TO PRETEND THAT IT DIDNT HAPPEN. I STILL CRY.
I WANT TO FEEL SAD. IT'S NOT LIKE IN THE MOVIES.
HE HAD THE SAME LIFE AS ME. HE WAS MY FRIEND.
I NEVER WANTED HIM TO HURT. HE DIED IN IRAQ.
I WISH I HADN'T GOTTEN WHAT I WANTED SO MUCH.
IT'S MY FAULT.
I WANT TO CHANGE IT ALL. I CAN'T.