2007-05-07 Journal Entry

Tick tock tick tock...
(Ding dong ding dong...)

My mind is an empty slate... I try to keep it empty as I lay here. Its to no avail, my mind is constantly wandering, wondering, seeking answers. Is this normal? To me it is... to others not so much. Oh well.

Graduating in two weeks... Heh I was more excited about it last week. I'm also leaving the talentless black & white world of Burger King once school is out. I'll spend my last month of Michigan in sanity without all the constant drama of attention-starved people who can't decide whether or not they live for themselves or for the "upcoming image of today." Either way I don't care what they do with their lives.

Its ridiculous and yet its even more ridiculous that I say something is ridiculous. Not many things surprise me and even less turmoils shock me. Kinda feels like I'm an empty shell... not really... I'm just use to all the bullshit around me. You learn to tune it out and ignore it. Thats partially the reason why I tried to nap for a while but I couldn't get my mind to shut up. I couldn't stop thinking or pondering why.

Indeed... why?

I am myself that's why. I thrive on knowledge. Of knowing the answers to why. Knowing I'm different and not changing myself to fit others standards.

That's why... I write.