A whole hour ago I got out of bed
Time for school, rather skip instead
Ill take a hot shower; run the pain from my head
Turn the nozzle all the way, but cold is all I get
Guess ill go without, just face the world they said
Don’t see why they make me, id rather be dead

Finally get to class, 25 minutes late
The water was heating, I decided to wait
While I was leaving, dog escaped the gate
I tried so hard to catch him, he still got away
After time I found him, and I made him pay
My sister would have flipped had he turned up stray

Didn’t have time, didn’t pick up the phone
Let the answering thing say, sorry were not home
The other end said I'm George D. Malone
I’d like to talk to you folks about your unpaid loans
He said call me back and then dial tone
Suddenly I realized how much my parents felt alone

School drug on, like gum on your shoe
When it was out and I had nothing else to do
I went straight home, practically crawled up to my room
Earlier I smoked so I lit some perfume
I want to go to bed though I should start my review
I’m way too lazy guess ill just watch the tube
Music videos, commercials, and some blues clues
Since there’s nothing on, there’s just one thing else I do

Ran some hot water, got into my tub
Soaped up my loofa began to scrub
Slowly with dirt I filled my tub
Not just with dirt because then it was blood
I couldn’t help myself I just had to cut
Today someone told me I was such a slut
They don’t fucking know me, that wrenches my gut
Ill kill the mother fucker who dares to ask me what

I took out my razor and chastised my arm
I loved the zing of pain I know does my body harm
I set my timer to ring out its alarm
So that I could cut my wrists without going to far
As the blood dripped out I gripped the silver bar
My head became light, and I saw the birds and stars

I’m lying in my bed ready for sleep
In the fight we had this evening I didn’t say a peep
I took the verbal blows through my gritted teeth
He slapped me in my face and I turned the other cheek
He told me not to get smart w/ him he would beat me weak
I told him to go fuck himself and ran into the street

I was brought back by the cops close to 2 in the morning
They read me my “rights” they were really rather boring
They caught me behind Wal-mart told me to stop crying
I said my father beat me and they told me to stop lying
They said he called us up, and told us quick to get flying
He told us to make certain sure that you wouldn’t go dieing
I said it’s so when I get home it’s my ass he’ll be frying

I got home, they said that I could go down to my room
I left there and I heard my fathers voice begin to boom
He asked if in detention center they had any more room
They told him sir she can’t just come it’ll be her certain doom
He said I don’t care take her there let her meet death her groom

The police left looking filled with strife
I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a knife
I walked into his room and told him this is my life
I left the room, made sure the blade was wiped
I put it back in the holder bought by his wife

I’m still laying in bed trying to doze off
I hear sirens outside maybe I’m caught
I didn’t muffle his screams I guess I should have thought
I just left him there, I was never taught
I have a bruise on my arm, in the beginning he fought
Well he’s the one bleeding now, I finally won out

You think I’m joking and I wish I was
I don’t feel bad, that’s just because

I hate him much less than he hated me
I doesn’t matter he’s dead now, I hope you and him see