Thoughts In My Head

I am a member of a few sites as I am sure most of us are. What I don't understand if your looking for someone in your area than why in the hell do you get people who are interested in meeting you in another damn country?? They are certainly not close too you so why do they bother?? Not that I am against foreigners but there are way too many on alot of sites that I have seen and I think I attract them. I deleted a few sites 'cause all my messages were from foreigners ... isn't there anyone in the United States that is looking for a relationship? Maybe I am on all the wrong sites?? Maybe I should stop looking on line? Although I have made some good friends thats the only reason why I do get on line. This is like my own little world and I am comfortable here.

Still having problems trying too do my own work ... maybe if I don't try as hard it might come too me?? I can't believe I am so close to turning the big
4 0 this year. I feel like I am already over the hill and starting too climb another.

Trapped inside my ever growing thoughts is a little girl shaking and scared.
Not knowing what the future holds her eyes are wide with wonder.
What will tomorrow bring in this endless world of dreams that she has secured locked and tight deep inside her brain.

I believe in angels and I believe in fate and instead of waiting at heaven's gate for my angel too help me through, I welcome all the earth bound ones too guide me day by day. A tender caress is all she needs too fill her life with joy. But where in this crazy mixed up world is the one who will fill her needs?

Take Care and God Bless.