My Thoughts and Feelings

I have been seeing a man now for a few months, he calls himself my boyfriend and tries too act like one. Last Saturday we made plans for me to go see him after the Football game was over so when it was done, I called, NO ANSWER. I have been calling just about every day and still NO answer from him.

I done something rather stupid as well, I drove by his house last night and caught his friend leaving, he was at the door, so I had a chance to glimpse inside and there he was sitting on his couch in front of his computer. I didn't stop because the vehicle I was driving wasn't my own and I had to get it back to the person I borrowed it from.

How can someone just stop all communications with another person without at least saying something too them?? I felt I have done nothing wrong, in fact I have been very open with him. He knows that my soon to be ex-husband uped and left me a year and four months ago ... vanished into the night, and what he has done made me feel the exact same way I felt when I realized I was dumped.

They say that opposites attract and he is my total opposite. He has broken down some walls that I felt were unbreakable. A little too kinky for my likings, but I am drawn too him.

I feel lost, abandoned, and heart broken ... something that I vowed I would try not too feel again once my marriage went down the drain.

How can someone intenionally hurt others?

Does he feel hurt? The way I feel hurt?

Does he feel the pain? The way I feel pain?

Did he even really have any feelings for me? The way I had feelings for him?

Do I really want to know why this has happened? Or should I lick my wounds and go about life, like he was never apart of it?

So many questions running through my head, so much heartache I feel once again.
I just want the pain and heartache to go away, but I feel like I can't let him go. Am I a fool for falling in Love with someone who apparently didn't have the same feelings for me ... GOD, I feel so used now like I was nothing but a sex toy to him.

What am I to do??? What am I to do???