Internal as it is,
It shows on the outside

My long time friends know the drill.

I called some one I barely speak to,
Because it won’t get back to either of them

Why am I looking for what’s not their?

My life is good; I should be able to be happy
And yet, it’s not perfect yet.

She won’t make it any more perfect than it already is.

Why is it Man doesn’t follow his Nature to be who he is,
Why is it I want to even though I know I will fall.

Lies before were meanness, lies now devastating?

I have a great life; most would want to be me,
Others to be like me; its all so perfect now

It is not a farce, but in moments like this when I can’t do as I please?

Why can’t I love whom I wish,
Whys this one girl matter so much?

Any one but her, and I can do what I want.

But the one I want, Off limits.
Its almost unfair, yet I should stay away from her

Why do I have to be so Honest, why cant I Lie

They know the drill, I am thinking of some thing stupid,
Or I would have called some one local, who would talk me out of this.

What will my choice be?

Its only a meeting nothing from that,
If only the truth had not been spoken

If only I could have held my toung.

Dam your honesty, dam your self
Dam your mind, dam your nature

Whys my muse, taunt me so, as if I could walk away

I love them both, I love them all
One for the LUST, the other for the Love

Dam your self, dam your honesty, you could have let the sleeping dog lie

Its all prose, on paper, nothing is real
But in the moment, I wont say no, dam my Honesty

Who can’t love one, and scorn the rest

Dam my Polyamrous nature, Dam my choice
I thought it was a done deal, but nothing ever ends inside me

The wind blows, and the page turns, nothing stays the same

DAM, DAM, DAM
Whys this feel so dam real, why am I so dam torn

Where is my resolution, when’s it going to end

Go against my nature, Lie to my self, hate my self later
Lie to her, follow my soul, Hate my self now

This is only a moment, it too will soon pass, and all will be normal again.