my silence is like that
of the faded line
crossed so long ago
the eyes that never seem to want
to meet with your own
avoiding
searching
forever losing
forgivness for your sins
i wear my sign of pain
advertising my shame
with ever glance
you unlock the memory
pushed so far back
i gave my heart away
with no exscape of its loss
i tried so hard
to remain clean of it all
but i always revisit
i can't wash my pain away
why did you make the promise
you refused to keep?
love to you is lust
and i took in every word you said
adoration pouring from my soul
i thought i was loved
when in reality
i was mistaken

FOR A WHORE

(you'll never read this, but this is for you)