Here i stand...

My back against a wall...

My emotions a sea of tumoil and frustration...

What do i think? What do i feel? What do i do?

My days are abound with a flood of tension, greif, and guilt....

My nights spent alone with a looming sense of lonliness and emptiness...

My thoughts consumed by memories of things past, ideas of things to come, and regrets of things not done or said...

Could i have changed it? Would it have been different?

Questions that echo in my head...

Bouncing off ideas and emotions...

Stirring up more feelings and flooding my mind...

Pain rebouning at a loss...

Hope crying out for a return...

Happiness a few miles away...

In the arms of another...

I feel myself coming undone...

Falling apart without the glue of her love...

Connected to her still...

Through my sufferings...

Not wanting to heal...

For then that connection is lost...

Preferring missery with her...

Than an empty happiness with another...

Why you ask? Because it keeps me connected to her...

Stupid you say? I don't care she is worth it to me...

I call out with my soul...

"Come back..."

"Give me a chance to be there..."

"Let me take care of you..."

"Let me protect and shelter you... "

"Let me provide for you..."

"Let me build upon what we had..."

"What we lost..."

I will wait till the end of time for her return...

I may never have her again...

But i will never turn away...

It is an undying love that drives me...

Drives me toward a hope and a dream...

I was taken away from bliss when she left...

I can never go back without her...

She is my salvation.