I don't want to let you go
But you keep putting me in the dark
I've tried to stay your friend
But I want more...

(ICAN'T HAVE YOU)

Why not?

You can't stand the pain
Can't wait for one more year

(Mommy wants you to be a doctor)

You touch me with the music
Of your voice

And can move me with the
Lingering warmth of your hands

(I used to be your canvas, you painted me silver)

The memories are taking over my life
I can't be normal anymore

I fake the smiles

I forget I have to breathe

I hate my face and want
Everyone to go away

(Is she prettier than me?)

I never wanted it to be this way

I thought we would be together forever...
I thought you loved me?!

(My sheet still smells like you)

THIS IS HOW IT WILL ALWAYS BE

I'm losing body weight
And hours of sleep
You keep haunting me with your eyes...
They're everywhere in my dreams!

(Make it stop!)

Your words make no sense at all
You kiss me
Then tell me I can't be yours
[I cRy]
Then you lie

(Everything will be okay...)

Laying still in my bed
I listen to Clapton
Searching for my sanity
And trying not to think of you

Secretly praying that maybe...

I won't scream in the night

Or cry in my dreams

(The tears are hard to wash out
when my wrists are bleeding)

When I see you in slumberland
I will run the other way
Hoping I never feel your touch
Or sweet kiss

(So long and goodnight)