I Am The ONE. (previously inspired by one of my old poems)

I am week....

I am a fool....

I am blind.....

I am alone....

I am always off in my own little world.

Playing with weapons and deomons and honor.

Always never afraid to do exactly what i feel i want or should do.

Never am i letting in the true pain the sorrow.......the truth.

And yet im the one who always says that u can never run from reality.

I have a side that could melt the coldest chuncks of ice in people with just one look with that of the buring fires of hells wrath.

Or even freaze them with the coldest emotionless thoughts and expressions all at the same time.

And that is the true me the one i have locked away deep inside because of the fear i have. the fear of being hurt or screwing stuff up that i would let down every one and will never meet the expectations of those surrounding. out of fear of life its self.

That is the bigest fear of all. i am afraid to live when most are afraid to die.

I am completly unballanced afraid and week. But i feel it changing slowly on the inside. like my body is breaking splintering into a million little pieace and being put back together all deffrently.

This feeling its unimaginable its agonizing and yet its comforting. like a though a thousand razor blades are cutting into my heart and yet at the same time replacing all the cuts and filling the empty spaces with ice and showing the already set wondes like battle scarse and turning the blood in my veinds into burning hellz fire as it leaves my heart to coarse threw my body and turning to the coldest ice sending chills up my spin as it returns to the heart.

My skin turning hard as stone. unpenatrable indestructable. my body feels stronger like there is no limit to what i can do as long as i never stop trying my skin though hard and more like armor has become more sensitive to touch and my sences all grow sharper.

MY natural instenct intertwinds with my brain with all of my thoughts and desires and becomes more reliable and my knowlage feels as though i can think faster and stronger as though it can drift endlessly threw out the thoughts i have had that was once driving me crazy as if it now drives it feeds it fuel to go on.

I no longer feel the fight between my inner demon and the man i know i can become. no more sensless battle constantly tearing and biting at each others fleash for survivol.

But instead i feel as though i have finally had enough and joined the battle my self and force domanance over the two just long enough to merge them together with me so that the three become the one. and the one become the three.

What i feel now is the feeling i have been longing for. what i have wished and beged for. i have finally acomplished my dream now i feel life pulsing threw my veins and death always at my back ready to help so long as i do not fear him.

Now all i have left to do is live and die and to make the rest of my dreams a reality. because i am no longer week or a fool or blind or alone.

I am finally me wether or not any one likes it or if it doesn't meaet there standors i no longer care.

I am finally the ONE.