the melancholy of a broken heart

i push through the smoke.
only to find, im walking straight into the flames.

i want to thank her.
for fucking me over once again.
my lungs deteriorate.
there are no words...

/my apologies/

this charred tongue cant form the right farewell.
so instead i spit blood upon her face...

she was my demon of desire.
she sets my soul on fire.
how do i love her still?

time eats away the time
swallowing the hours that remain
and im still treading in the sea of tears i cried the other day
(this ocean of my emotion is far much bigger than i thought)

kiss me. kill me. end my misery.

-my message in a bottle-

i dont think it reached the shore yet.

-dont leave me hangin babe
i still dont have enough courage to be a coward-

take the blade to my plastic wrists
(she whispers... i wont forget...)
sanctified by the metal bliss
(trapped in your lip locked death grip)
with each crimson drop that falls .....
(i dont want to be your doll)
i float farther away
(you finally heard my call)

away from you..........

inhale
the last breath was the sweetest
exhale
your toxic poison


(fire over water)
it slowly fizzles out
i sink beneath the surface
and watch the rippled sun fade away
into the blackness of my mind
f/a/r/e/w/e/l/l desire.......


HERE i'll LAY me DOWN to SLEEP



the melancholy of a broken heart



.(*im a mermaid in my dead dreams*).