my eyes still bleed

if you could interwine the fabrications of our souls
the twisting of my fate making my life more whole
i would greet the day's light more comfortably

there would be no sun glasses at the breakfast table

im not even hungry this morning

and i know im just a loser
and that your out of my reach
i know i cant really hold you anyway
but i thought i just might try
theres still alittle part of me that hasnt yet died


wrapping my self in this web of lies
am i really as ugly as i feel
tearing out my insides
im painting the worst perfect picture ever...
and this is my foundation


and i got what i wanted right
your mouth up to my throat
you kissed better in my dreams

im wondering is it really you i need
or the rest of myself...
i didnt think it would be this easy to camaflauge
as i back up to the wall...

you talk right through me
its like im not even there at all

and this was what i longed for
and wished for everyday
i never thought you could be this way
you kill me more than i kill myself

so i put my shades back on
and sit down in my kitchen
i eat some french toast so my mom will stop bitching

i dont want to starve myself of new hopes
but my eyes still bleed

you arent worth the wasted time
of my thoughts or of this rhyme

fuck off...............


isnt hate so lovely.