Addiction scares the shit out of me.

Today I sat,
Alone in a chair,
Staring into nothing,
And looking down i saw myself.
And it scared the Shit out of me.

I Saw addiction, Caked to my body,
Like ash from the fall of structures,
It was embedded deep into my skin,
And it burned into my eyes.

Jumped, Fear risen in my bones.
As fast as could, Tearing the clothes..
Off of my body, they too were covered in the filth..
Of my exsistance.
The chair I sat upon,
I moved from fast..For it was reeking the scent
Of addiction.

The Cup, grasped into my hands,
Crashed into the wall.
It was a pure sign of my failure,
My addiction.

I Showered.twice...Scrubbing,
Until my body was raw,
But the ash of my sin,
Was stolen deep within,
That was which i had feared..
At long last,

My end has come.