Trying to Make Sense of It
By Empathy
Cobain's suicide, despite the extremely private nature of his decision
or compulsion to hide himself alone in a romm and blow his brains out,
quickly came to be seen as greatly symbolic. There's a part of me that
understands why.
Depression is no longer a private, psychological matter. It is a social
problem and an entire culture of depression has developed around it.
People would be perfectly correct to see his life and the music he created
in that short time as utterly symbolic. Nirvana's popularity either inaugurated
or coincided with some definite and striking cultural moments. No one can
or ever should even think to take that away from him or his memory. But
by the time he was alone in his garage apartment with a shotgun in his
hand with the intent of doing himself in, his actions were far beyond any
kind of cultural momentum we can associate with the times.
No one shoots himself in the head because he's had a bad fishing season
or because the papers editorial section has said bad things about him.
Depression strikes down deep. The fact that depressions seems to be "in
the air" right now can be both the cause and result of a level of societal
malaise that so many feel. But once someone is a clincial case, once someone
is in a hospital bed, or in a stretcher headed to the morgue, his story
is absolutely and completely his own. Every person who has experienced
a severe depression has his own sad, awful tale to tell, his own mess
to live through. Sadly, Kurt Cobain will never get that far. Ten years
later, I can't help but wonder what could have been.
Comments on "Trying to Make Sense of It"
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On Saturday, August 6, 2005, Dancing_Monkey
(1228) wrote:
I hope his and curtneys child, takes on the father *shifty eyes and runs off*Ø