Why am i thinking these thoughts again?

I tried so hard to burry all of these feelings i have for people and things that happen.

And yet here they are to question me and tourment me like they never left my mind at all.

No matter how deep i dig or how far down the rabit whole goes that i send them down they pop right back up again.

I have tried to work through them all the questions and thoughts but it doesn't matter how hard i search for the answer.

I mean what good would it serve me to know the answers to them all when its done any way i still end up in the same place all in all.

And the same things still happen.

So screw the answers and all the questions i have swiming in my head.

Like why must love ones die or why are we here in the first place?

And what makes love so important that we search for it?

And why can't i just walk away from all the feelings?

To hell with all the feelings and questions and why i can't just walk away.

Maybe the reason is so simple that i can't do it because i keep thinking of it instead of just doing it.

Is that my choice to either suffer through all the thoughts and what ifs or to walk through and suffer by just shuting my self down and making every one i have ever cared for think i don't give a damn at all?

What the hell?

Screw it a or b to hell with that i chose c god damn it.

ill find away through all of this shit one way or another and if not then oh well because no matter what i chose the questions and feelings hell just human nature never really goes away.

(i know it sucks but i haven't posted anything in a while.)