why must the yearning
to be with another person
cuase me to be in so much pain
she destroys me
from the inside out
but yet i still
long to be with her
she her face
hear her voice
nothing is more soothing
when she rests her head on my chest
when all else fails
she can put a smile on my face

but when im away from her
i fall quickly away
my anger rising
blaming her for all my pain
knowing what she has commited against me
against herself
i just can believe she would do that
but i guess she knows now that
people make mistakes
and im willing to forgive her
but the instability
in both of us
do not mix for the well-being
oscilating she brings me love
but yet i hate her...

we are distant but close
we are in love but hate

ever see someone put too much science into something that should come naturally...like a technique...fishing for example...im doing this too my life too much thinking about it and not just doing it...but i need to stop and think sometimes or i will hurt someone again...i dont know what to do.