why do i act this way?

why must i say things that i know will bring no good?

even if they are the truth.

i always fuck up every thing good.

and i always say that i don't care and that i will always be there.

but i do care.

infact i care to damn much so i will be supportive and tell u what u want to hear.

though the things i think no one should probly ever hear.

i always over analyze everthing.

and i act like i don't care to try to hide the pain i feel inside.

for fear that u may see the inner demon i have locked up inside of me.

that i will always try to hide to keep from causing u pain and fear.

so i ask again what the hell is wrong with me?

why must i day dream of such things that will never come.

only to spend my nights dreaming of nothing at all.

and yet when i shut my self off and enclose my self in darkness to keep out the world.

i still can't close u out.

u are the dim light that keeps me here.

in this earthly realm.

and u are the one to keep from going insain.

so maybe u know what the hell is wrong with me?

but then maybe not.

oh well i don't really care as long as i have u.