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just as i think things are coming together they begin to fall apart. i begin to wonder if i should maybe learn how to give up after all. well maybe and maybe not.
for though i hope this would be the end that would make it merely a start... the start of a sad, sad spiral i will never fall victim of!
so then i must strugle, fight, even run and hide... but NEVER, NEVER give up!
i may be nieve, a bit on the hopeless side of romance... but i'll never give up, not till what i seek is found and my life is whole...
if that means i have a hole in my soul until said time is upon me so be it...
but please, when you see my bleed through this unnatural oriface... don't stare, or point, or call me names... just turn and walk away.
i ask this in a plead for i know you'll not stay... so please i beg of you ...
just walk away.


don't turn around, no long good-byes... i'll see ya when i see so don't water those dry eyes.
carry me in your heart and mind the way i am today ... tomorrow when you see me i'll have already changed.
i'm not the boy i used to be and soon won't be the man i am... i'm in a constant state of flux hope you
recognize me when i'm there... but for now, just walk away and maybe someday will be our day... until then farewell my dear.
farewell.....