we see eye to eye

im beginning to think
youve become sedated
im beginning to think
you no longer care
im beginning to think
that all your effort is futile
im beginning to think
you should give up
im beginning to think
you no longer matter
and im beginning to think
that i agree with you



all is not well
all is not shiny
all is not new
all is not you

all is trash
all is dirt
all is filth
all is disease
all is the world
and the world is my nightmare



she feels hatred
pour forth from every pour
like blood on the ocean
in rising tides of animosity
she would scream
if it would only silence the cries
for a mere second
she would tear our her eyes
if it would keep her
from seeign the real world
she would sleep
if it would qualm
the fear of the outside

this darkness is boding
this pain to familiar
this numb to calming
and this time to now

take me from this anti solace
rip me from this white sheet world
this cookie cutter exsistance
this torrid life
pull me back
from the precipace
of my own destiny


i would but make you see
if i thought it would do you any good
i would open your eyes
if i thought you wouldnt try to forget
i would tell you
if i thought you would but listen
i would sing
if you wouldnt forget the words
i would try
if i thought you would to
i would fight
if you would give me cause
i would die
since youve givin me no reason not to










thrash
scream
maim
disarray
lodge
carry
run
detroy
shred
throw
jolt
scream
scream
scream
scream
scream






im sick
and tired
and ovewhelemed
by my self
my own emotions
that i try so hard to lock away
its becomeing to easy
to sit and stare
into nothingness
and into the blade
the sweet silver blade
and wish for something
anything
to make this all go away
ive tried
ive lied
ive died
and still i crave
crave that innocent
pure
serene
little thing
that is pain



tear me apart
i beg you
crush my heart
im screaming for you
rip away my walls
i hate them
make me sick
with everything
make me see
not just for little while
but forever
inbed it in my head
force it down on me
make me not feel like this
so angry
and guilty




im going to scream.