No Matter

I feel so lonely that I could cry
Everytime I try to show affection
I get shoved to the side
No matter what I do in my life
No matter what I try
It's never good enough
And I end up feeling like dying
Why won't they love me?
I offer so much in return
For just one little drop of their sweet attention
But it will never happen
No matter how hard I hope and pray
No matter how hard I try to show them how worthy I am of their affection
It just won't happen
And I don't know what I could have done to deserve to be treated in this manner
Maybe I just don't deserve to be loved
Maybe I just don't deserve to be held
Maybe I should die
And leave them alone like they so seem to want
I always get in the way
Why must I always get in the way?
Why must I always be alone?
Why can't they just love me
Like I love them?