living horror

haze hanging to life lifeless?
cold hardly conscious breathing confussed?
lost alone no sounds something?
dead alive oh damn?

sensing surgical sounds?
smelling strong solutions?
can't see am i dead?
laying naked hard table?
vocies,laughing,lifeless?

must be medical operation?
get control can't freak out?
might be major critical?
lie still listen try to live?
be calm come back live?

speaking what's he saying?
balm what balm?
what words wonder saying what?
balm?oh god!EMBALM!
they think i'm dead.