as the pain decays in ecstasies
i sober down in an enchanted memory
the mental suffering in the martyrdom
my lucid sanity caused me to be numb
im in this incubus every night
with tribulation mixed with light
the misery i breathe
cases me to be
a comfortless infelicity
my own crucifixion burning inside me

steady breath with a cold wind
i feel a plague coming from with in
bloody eyes that cry threw my viens
mortification makes me sane

la~la~la~la~la~la~

this transparent window that looks at me
is the place of torment for all humanity
all inspiration and goals have disappeared
there is no horizon rising with fear
chaos, distruction, irony, and bliss
all blessed to me from the devils lips
fire inside my mouth, ash on my tounge
emotions wear and tear until they break down
corrupt and taint this infected wound
deprave me and envenom my womb