Now I'm Numb

By Elizabeth

Just look at me, look what I've become.
My thought's have unraveled and my mind's undone.
So many years gone by, this is all I know.
So what do you do when you find it's all for show?
I can't exsist in this place with a plastic face,
This smile hurts my cheeks and I still feel disgrace,
I pretend for you and I try so hard,
but you still call me the mother fuckin' retard!
Well I'm not what you think, and I'm not what you are,
and I won't be you sitting up in the bar.
Who are you to say that I'm dumb?
No mater what you played it seems you always won.
Just look at me, look what I've become,
you fucked with me all my life,
and now I'm numb.
So call me what you want, cuz I've heard it all before.
"Don't you ever step a foot inside of my door."
What did you expect, what'd you want me to be?
I wish you'd tell me so I'd be free of misery,
but you side with my demons and make faces at me.
I can't hear the pain, I can't see the cry,
I can't tell anymore even if I try,
All I know is this, that I'm looking to die,
because if your not killing my mind then neither am I.

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Copyright 2004 Elizabeth
Published on Monday, January 19, 2004.     Filed under: "Lyrics"
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  • A former member wrote: damn you write really well but...(and plz try to understand I say this with love and respect) you think like shit man.

  • A former member wrote: i don't understand why you would put up with that crap like you deserved it?

  • void On Wednesday, December 8, 2004, void (36)By person wrote:

    this was an amazing write. i wish i could force people who have done the same to me to read it. thank you for this.

  • KittyStryker On Wednesday, March 24, 2004, KittyStryker (736)By person wrote:

    never pretend to be what you aren't. no one is worth it. no one.

  • A former member wrote: Iliked it. Thats sorta the style i write my lyrics in, and it does flow good

  • Seraphic On Monday, January 19, 2004, Seraphic (237)By person wrote:

    that was touching...sad, but strong and it flowed nicely *~seraph~*

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