Fog

Where am I?
Mind too foggy to remember
Shaking my head I feel something grab my wrists
Held above my head... my thighs are forced open
a moment of fear
But with one thrust, a wash of heat and passion...
My body relaxes
fear melts with every motion
back arced... muscles tensed
God its been a long time
my lips part
out with a moan slips the word "HARDER"
and he does
my hands instinctively rake into his back
his teeth into my neck
heat mounting... sweat and blood run freely
screams and moans run ramped...
.........
Without warning the fog lifts
cold air hits like a brick
Lost in the darkness
I franticly grab for what’s not there...
.........
Reality seeps in
I pull the covers tight around me and turn over
tears stinging my eyes, soaking my pillow
only a dream
the passion-- a memory of a time that died months ago
along with the man I loved