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If You're There
By Ideas
I've been screaming at you for years
Begging you to take away my pain
If you're there you already know
It just happens to be you I blame
But...
I have to ask for a favor tonight
So if you happen to actually be there
Please, make my heart hard
Don't let me love, don't let me care
I'm tired of being sensitive in an insensitive world
I've lost two more friends to the pizo
And another to a gun wound
I'm tired of feeling so damn low
My best friend is drinking himself to death rather quickly
And he doesn't seem to notice these tears I shed
Please, I can't feel anymore, I can't do it
Too many times now my heart has bled
I know we abandoned one another, but if you're there
Would you do the honor of killing me inside?
Emotions are threatening to consume me now
I don't want to care when my cousin says she attempted suicide...
I don't want to love
And I don't want to hate
Rid me of all feelings, I'm begging
I've tried, I'm tired, don't make me wait
I've been screening my calls lately
And just staying home
They say I'm being anti-social and depressed
I say I'm closer to being numb when I'm alone
I don't know what else I can do
So please, if you're there
Make my heart hard tonight
I don't have what it takes to care...
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A former member wrote:
I feel your pain. I feel like everyone here understands. I would like to say that it is people like you who put your work out there are the people who inspire me to do things inlife. Thank you.
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On Monday, January 10, 2005, Emptyness Inside Me
(171)
wrote:
so aful for a person to have to go through all that hurt and pain, such a cruel world, very emotional this piece was, good job ~Emptyness~
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A former member wrote:
this is such a beautiful statement of desperation. and i have asked for the same things. "I'm tired of being sensitive in an insensitive world" was my favorite line... good write.
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On Saturday, December 20, 2003, Jaded Jezzabelle
(328) wrote:
"I say I'm closer to being numb when I'm alone" We must be living the same type of life...I am where your at exactly, I wish I could explain it as you have ...good work...ps is pizo what I think it is????
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On Saturday, December 20, 2003, Ideas
(50) wrote:
Pizo is the pipe used for smoking meth...so if that's what you think it is, yes.
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On Thursday, December 18, 2003, purr_verse
(1059) wrote:
"tear my fucking heart out" (Carl McCoy) This piece hurts. purr
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